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today i wanna share something deep inside from my heart..I feel so grateful because till today i still can breath, still healthy, still can smile and the most important that i still have my "BFF" besides me. And soon im going to 24th.. :) feels like im kinda old and still havent achieve what i really want in my life. Everythings so different from my eyes now.. I'm not like i used to be.. I'm totally change, i dunno its going to be a better person or what.. i'm not saying that im going to do a negative things, but it's for real that i'm really change!! damn?&^%#@!!
When someone grow up and old soon, u will scared for everythings.. and now i admit that i'm really scared. I'm scared that i'll loose what i had now. When we talk about friends, yes i have a lot of friends that really care bout me so much..they never counting with me, they are always with me when i'm down, they are always supporting me till today and never doubt bout me! But now i'm really mad of someone "7858" i dont know why he totally change.. and just because of the stupid things , and obviously not my mistakes at all..duhhhh!! It's really make me sad my dear. Nvm, i will just easily forget about it when my birthday coming next tuesday..heheheee..... I'm wondering why my lifes are so complicated...i have everything but still i felt so empty. So now for whom it may concern, dont control me because u can never ever success to do that. I wont follow your order! Dont say this and that to me unless if i ask your favor. :p I'm patient enough till today.. I've sacrifice my life for something that i think is not worth at all, for something that i really don't needed it. It makes my world so vainly. I think i can say that my heart never knew such pain and my body never knew such pleasure quite a long time. Make me so confused. Dont you know my tears will cause an inferno? hahahaaa...later u'll know! I never go astray, i never wanted to see things so bad and i never wanted to make my life so complicated cause im so tired. When the world is full of victims for me I fight the fight alone in my souls for real. Maybe the good things is it makes me become stronger and stronger. That is why i'm slowly changing! ( because i'm tired ) I've got to find that meaning of my life and I'll search for so long to make me all that I am and all that I'll be. It hurts like hell but i know it's only just the beginning to find release. I will stand with my own feet to achieve what i want! I wont let people make me down! I will let people see my enormity again! WELCOME TO MY WONDERFULL WORLD!!!