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angin malam
membuatku kedinginan
sepi yang kurasakan
seperti tiada lagi bintang
yang menemani bulan
seperti itu jugalah
aku tenggelam
dalam pekat malam
kesunyian itu
amat perit
sehingga menusuk
kedasar hati
yang paling dalam
dan aku tak mampu
untuk sembunyikannya
karna ragaku
tak mengizinkannya..
lalu aku ingin pergi
jauh dari kesulitan ini
untuk mencari kembali
untuk mengerti kembali
apakah kehidupan ini
jalan yang penuh liku
yang slalu menemani hidupku
hanya waktu yang bisa
ubati semuanya

alam nasut yang alpa

lalai akan hala tuju

yang mereka kejar cuma harta

dunia yang penuh propaganda

kebuasan menjadi watak utama

dalam sinetron dunia

ozon dicemari tanpa hati

musnahkan semua pemberian Ilahi

delusi yang tiada pasti

angkuh menjadi tonggak diri

cakerawala yang mengelilingi bumi

masihkah ada yang menghargai?

ada yang mengemis untuk sesuap nasi

kenapa tiada yang peduli?

dajal kecil menguasai

kezaliman beraja dihati

bercakaran disana sini

murba yang menjadi korban

tanpa rasa belas dihati

hingga hilang pintang moralis.

luluh lantak mengiring duka

moga ketemu akhir yang abadi.

lohong yang gelap

sinar yang pudar

laju.... tanpa arah

lalu membelok mencari tujuan

terus menuju kehadapan

tak pasti dimana penghujungnya

lelah tidak mengapa

karena kepastian yang ada

akan muncul jua

biar badai melanda

biar taufan musnahkan semua

percaya.. berani

pasti akan ketemu

penghujung yang dicari

pasti nanti

rasa lega dihati

akan ditemui..

kutemukan damai dihati

jauh dari duka lara

tiada lagi beban didada

ombak besar itu telah surut

langkah demi langkah

kakiku berlalu pergi

tidak ingin kembali lagi

biar menjadi potret hitam dihati

kotak hati itu hancur

musnah bak serpihan kaca

yang tak bisa dicantum lagi

hanya menambah lara

bebas bagaikan merpati

terbanglah kau tinggi

lebarkan sayap semahumu

agar kau bisa berlagu lagi

.............

kau semanis madu

senyummu ku rindu

tawamu mencuri hatiku

sentuhanmu menggairahkanku

kucupanmu...ahhhhhh..

kasihmu yang tulus

cintamu kutagih

dakapanmu yang hangat

sehangat cintaku.

aku rindu

tak pernah jemu

adakah kau

merasa begitu?

gula hatiku,

datang padaku,

dakaplah aku,

semahumu.

hey mestika hati,

rinduku meredap,

inginku sentuh wajahmu,

apalah dayaku

mari berdansa

lagu cinta,

sambil perlipan,

dalam dakapan.

hey tepatan jiwa,

tahukah kau,

karna dirimu,

aku jadi perindu

palun tubuhku

semahu hatimu

kupersembahkan nirwana

hanya untukmu.

Kau sungguh ironik,

saat jiwaku sepi,

dalam pekat malam,

kau datang bawa harapan.

Kau matahariku,

tetaplah kau begitu,

nyanyikan lagu hatimu,

hanya untukku.

Hey, ini tragedi cinta,

kau dan aku,

tidakkah kau rasa begitu?

Bahagiakan hidupmu,

dengan senyumku,

bayangkan dirimu,

saat bersamaku,

Akan kupeluk,

dan bahagiakanmu,

Indah bukan?

Hey penjaga hati,

bawalah aku kesyurgamu.

jangan pernah ragu,

akulah dewi cintamu!

heeeeeeee.... benci tau macam ni, depan mata pon rindu, macam mana?

kalau jauh rindu, depan mata pon rindu, boleh jadi giler macam ni..

ungkapan "i miss u" tu pon tak boleh nak menggambarkan betapa rindunya aku..

sighhhhh.... sedih ok...

rindu sampai nak nangis..

tapiiiiiiii...... kenalah cover macho sket..

tak agak agak kot nak nanges kat starbux ni..hmmmmmmmm...

benci benci benci benciiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!

benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci benci

hati ini menjadi sepi,

hati ini merasa pedih,

hati ini sungguh luluh,

hingga akhirnya hati ini mati,

hati jangan kau luka aku lagi,

aku tak mampu tanggung lagi,

jangan seksa aku lagi,

jangan sakiti aku lagi.

pergilah derita,

nyah! aku tak ingin lagi,

segenap sudah derita ini,

membuat hidupku tiada erti.

jangan, jangan kau hampiri lagi,

aku tak sudi,

kau hanya menyakiti.

tapi aku akan kembali,

untuk mewarnai,

sekeping hati,

yang dikhianati.

Daytime Looks for School or Work

Keep it simple! Remember that a little shimmer goes a long way. Your day-to-day look should be soft and natural…

Eyes: You should wear little or no eyeliner during the day. If you want to wear a liner choose black or brown, only wear it on your top lid and make sure it blends to look natural. When picking shadows stick with colors that aren’t too dark and compliment your eye color. Curl your lashes and put on a little mascara. One coat is plenty for during the day!

Cheeks: Apply a soft color blush that will give your cheekbones some subtle definition. Stick with light pinks and tans to get a sun kissed glow!

Lips: Stay away from dark shades and anything with too much glitter. Stick with a sheer gloss or a light colored lipstick like pink or coral.

Because i am a girl

I just can't understand the ways
Of all the men and their mistakes
You give them all your heart
And then they rip it all away

You told me how much you loved me
And how our love was meant to be
And I believed in you
I thought that you would set me free

You should've just told me the truth
That I wasn't the girl for you
Still, I didn't have a clue
So my heart depended on you, whoa

Although I'll say I hate you now
Though I'll shout and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I am a girl

Been told a man will leave you cold
Get sick of you and bored
I know that it's no lie
I gave my all, still I just cry

Never again will I be fooled
To give my all when nothing's true

I won't be played again
But I will fall in love again

I loved you so
Now you leave me in the cold
How could this be
I thought that you'd only love me

Into the night
I will pray that you're alright
You hurt me so
I just can't let you go

You took advantage of my willingness
To do anything for love
Now I'm the only one in pain
Will you please take it all away

Never thought being born a girl
How I can love you and be burned
And now I will build a wall
To never get torn again

** hahahaa i love this song very much, i used to sang this song about a year ago, when i used to lepak at coffee bean mont kiara, hartamas square,hahah..i will sing this song till im tired! people said my voice not suite with the song, but who cares??? hahah..**

2010 brings me to positive way. Thats a very good way to start it. All i think is to be positive to modernize myself to be a better person. Throw all the gargabe thoughts will make me even enliven. Honestly, previously i do have a lot of trash in my bin but i never willing to remove it cause im kinda not willing to unscrew what i should let go. Like i said 2010 brings me all the positive energy and positive thingking and im glad cause i succeed to remove all the garbage to the bin and of course empty it with a single click in my head. I dont wanna living in past, bad memories just make me going nowhere and i will end up strain. I even learn how to appreciate people. I want to forget all the pain I experienced during all this time. I was very thankful that God open my mind and gave me the opportunity to improve all the mistakes and shortcomings I have ever done. This change is for myself, because the existence of positive change, it will make my life better and happier. Sometimes we will remember the story of a very sad past. At first, I experience it every night and it made me hard to sleep longer and more miserable it will make me become more depressed. I HATE STRESS..OUHHHH GOSHH!! I learn from my past mistakes, to forgive myself and to live with a wonderful life.

But I am also frustrated because some people took advantage of me. They pry my past mistakes to cutting myself and I am very frustrated because there is no direct sincerity in their hearts. But it was not shake my spirit to make changes :) My soul, mind and my heart is very strong and positive. So I will respond to future challenges. If not, dont dare to call me Fiona Jalaluddin. We find happiness, the pursuit of our time, we determine our own destiny, we can change ourselves, not others. If we want to success in the world and the Hereafter, we must believe in ourself and in God's compassion. Dont ever give up!!! Love and honest to ourself.

" Negative person are the most foolish person in the universe "

Saat aku tertawa diatas semua
Saat aku menangisi kesedihanku
Aku ingin engkau selalu ada
Aku ingin engkau aku kenang
Selama aku masih bisa bernafas
Masih sanggup berjalan kukan slalu memujamu
Meski ku tak tahu lagi engkau ada dimana
Dengarkanlah aku kumerindukanmu
Saat aku mencoba merubah segalanya
Saat aku meratapi kekalahanku
Aku ingin engkau selalu ada
Aku ingin engkau aku kenang

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"

Maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one

tak suka la macam ni....
nak lari tinggalkan tempat ni bole tak???
bosan dah kat sini..
buat baik dengan orang pun langsung tak dihargai
apa nak jadi
kalau dah bosan pegilah angkat kaki
tunggu apa lagi?
menyampahlahhh....
sampai bila nak hidup macam ni...
aku dah penat..
boleh tak kasi aku hidup dengan aman
heeee...sakit hatilah..
terima kasih
tuhan tu adil
nanti kau dapatlah balasannya..

manusia..??
banyak jenis manusia
ada yang mudah mendapatkan sesuatu
dan ada juga yang perlu bersusah payah
mereka yang hidup dalam kesenangan memang menyeronokkan
mereka minta dan impikan apa saja mereka akan mendapatnya dengan mudah
tapi mereka yang bersusah payah dan hidup sentiasa dalam kesusahan..
apakan nasib mereka..
sedihh..
tapi aku pasti dan aku juga yakin..
tentu ada sebab yang menjadikan manusia jadi begitu..
permasaalahannya..
cemburu, iri hati dan hasad dengki pasti mengundang ke dasar hati
itu lumrah manusia
ada yang kata tuhan itu tidak adil
ada yang kata tuhan itu sangat menyayangi mereka
tapi kau jangan lupa
setiap kejadian pasti ada sebabnya
tuhan menguji dan terus menguji
dimana tahap kesabaran manusia
tapi kita jangan alpa
jika kita terus berusaha
dengan niat yang baik
diiringi doa yang ikhlas
pasti apa yang kita inginkan
akan dimakbuli..
itu janji TUHAN..

Cat Eye Make-up

I'm so into this cat eye make-up. It looks so stunning pin-up look and totally gorgeous yet simple but nice :) It's more easier and don't really need over eye shadow ( well, im totally sick of it since last year..naahhh!! )Cat eye make-up is all about eyeliner application and there are many variations to cat eye make up just like smokey cat eye make-up. Cat eyes makeup look can range from sharp, thin and pointed, to fat, and smudgy. At first, im totally fed up to do this smokey cat eye make-up techniques because i need to practice it till i get the perfect line.. Really need to be patience and focus and i'm glad cause finally i succeed :)

Here i share with u guys the few pictures of cat eye make up :

Gifts For Your Flame

Stuck on what to get your guy for Valentines Day? Take the stress out of picking out a present with my gift guide!

•Buy him a bottle of his favorite cologne. He’ll be happy he doesn’t have to refill himself and you’ll love how sexy he smells when you go in for a kiss!

•Make him a coupon book for hugs and kisses from you to make Valentine’s last longer than just a day! He can redeem them whenever he wants!

•Candy hearts aren’t just for kids! You can get traditional candies or chocolates customized to tell him just how hot you think he is.

•Take him underwear shopping - for you! Have him pick out what he wants to see you in and model it for him in the dressing room.

•Fill a platter with delicious fruits, put some melted chocolate in the middle for dipping, and serve it to each other.

•SPLURGE! If you’ve saved up some extra cash, plan a Valentine's trip. Near or far, a romantic getaway for 2 will guarantee for a sizzling hot V-Day!

Naked Nude Make-up

You don’t need to pile on layers of color to get this season’s hottest make up trend. Get ready to go nude! It’s all about enhancing your natural beauty with neutral shades that highlight what you already have.

•Use a bronzer instead of blush to give your face a just tanned, natural looking glow.

•Skip the lipstick and go with a sheer gloss or find a shade that matches the natural color of your lips. You can also try dabbing a little bit on concealer on for a sexy nude lip.

•Naked make up doesn’t have to be all about boring beiges! Play around with colors from peaches to pinks to bronzes that highlight your natural skin color.

The Diary Of Fiona Jalaluddin

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dusta dunia

badai

damai hati

....

Gula Hati

aku penanggung rindu

Tragedi Cinta

benci part 2

benci

hati...

To be natural and glow!

Daytime Looks for School or Work

because...

Lives

hmm..

LOVE

:|

human

eye

Love

nude

Fiona Jalaluddin